Four years ago, I owned a purebred dog.

This was before I owned a mutt, before I got involved in dog rescue and before I knew what a blog was. I’d never even thought about dog agility, starting a dog running business or fostering a pitbull.

But each dog that enters my life really does seem to open a new chapter, and Ace has introduced me to a whole new world with dogs.

Still, my life would not be the same without my golden retriever, Brittni.

Although this blog is primarily related to my mutt Ace, countless other dogs are intertwined throughout my posts including family members’ dogs, foster dogs and readers’ dogs.

Brittni is a dog I’ve failed to write much about.

A good dog

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If each dog represents a new phase in my life, Brittni was my high school and college years. She appeared during my freshmen year of high school and died right when I started my first job after college. Just as those years seemed to go by in a blur, Brittni’s life seemed unfairly cut short.

In a matter of days Brittni went from being a healthy, energetic 7-year-old to a deathly ill and suddenly old dog.

Euthanasia and dogs is something I’ve touched very briefly in my dog blog, probably because it’s a difficult subject. Plus, the dog I own is still very young, so I don’t think about the end yet.

The vet’s best guess for Brittni’s illness was an autoimmune disease (autoimmune hemolytic anemia). Basically her own immune system was destroying her red blood cells.

My only advice to other dog owners is to think ahead about the final decisions you’ll have to make for your dog. Don’t wait until shock and emotions play too much of a toll.

A dog’s anxiety

golden retrieversBrittni was the first dog I trained through formal obedience classes. Although I was teaching her, in reality she was training me about dogs, their behavior and the thrill I get from working with them.

The bond she and I formed was very strong, and anyone who’s ever owned a golden retriever knows all about their loyalty, devotion and love.

Brittni challenged me and got me thinking about dogs in a new way. Her many “issues” showed me the importance of socialization and exercise. Brittni was an extremely anxious dog, letting out shrill screams every time we met someone new, visited somewhere new or pretty much every time we did something out of her usual routine.

There’s no way to describe these crying fits Brittni did other than to maybe picture a full-grown husky put into a kennel and having a panic attack, howling and squealing to get out.

I remember one time my trainer was fed up with Brittni’s behavior and said to me in a hushed, scolding voice, “She needs to know that this is not acceptable!” All I thought was: Well, hello! That’s why I’m here!

Many of the suggestions I tried with Brittni did not work: Shaking a can filled with change at her (made her more anxious), leash pops (she literally could not control herself, correction or not) and telling her she was bad (also added to her anxiousness).

What worked best with Brittni was patience, long walks, ignoring unwanted behavior, praising her for being quiet and slowly bringing her to more and more places and introducing her to more people and dogs.

Anxiety or not, Brittni and I got to do a fair amount of traveling and hiking. I will always remember my long walks with her along the Luce Line trail west of Minneapolis and how she would run off leash at my side, never bothering to venture too far. We could walk for miles in all seasons, often going an hour without seeing anyone.

Had Brittni and Ace been around at the same time, I’m sure they would’ve been great friends. Brittni had that classic, happy-go-lucky retriever personality I now see in Ace. And like him, Brittni had an immeasurable desire to please, be with her pack and follow me from room to room.

I just wanted to share a bit about my wonderful and beautiful dog from my past. She helped me get where I’m going today. Thank you, Brittni, “the babe,” you were a good girl.

Please share with me your stories of dogs now gone.

In memory of Brittni

(1998-2005)

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11 Responses to “My golden retriever”

  1. Jan Says:

    It never ceases to amaze me how totally different dogs’ personalities can be. Even litter mates from the time they open their eyes seem to say, “I’m special.” People with little dog experience have to learn to listen to the individual dog.

  2. Lindsay Stordahl Says:

    As you know, with your multiple dogs and their personalities!

  3. Apryl DeLancey Says:

    It’s so hard to lose a member of the family like that. My story is…

    I met Moca, a mutt, when she was about 4. Her person became terminally ill and I “inherited” her at age 7. I was in college and concerned about having enough time for her. Lucky for me, she was an extremely well-behaved girl and I could bring her with me almost everywhere. After about a year, she was diagnosed with Cushing’s and became very ill. She couldn’t control her bowels and wouldn’t eat. Luckily, I had access to a vet that didn’t try to take all of my money and the patience to feed and clean up after her. She came out and was healthy again after medication and some very stressful months. She didn’t get sick again until age 15 and this time it was renal failure. I had her in the hospital and got the feeling the young vet was merely interested in performing more tests on her for her own curiosity. I told her to take all of the tubes out of my dog and I was picking her up. She replied that I would be back in a few hours and I told her that she didn’t need to be concerned with that. Moca lived another 2 years and passed away at home, with family who loved her and not in a cold cage. She was such a remarkable girl.

  4. Bonnie Story Says:

    Holly, my dog from High School junior year until we sadly put her down at age 14, was just one of those incredible push-button dogs that are so hard to get over. She was a Heinz 57 mix of husky, lab and shepherd, about 65 pounds, golden yellow with dark eyes and dark tail. Holly had an amazing ability to adapt and manage herself properly in any situation and while not overjoyed with new people, was always trustworthy with everyone. Made me lazy!!! I never had to correct her for anything!! We did do the dog training group classes, that was a lot of fun. When we found Holly at the animal shelter she was a very obese backyard dog, age 3, calm and quiet, that had never been inside a house. She was not at all sure about what happened inside of houses! She was to spend the rest of her life with us as a real household family dog. I recall having her inside with us at breakfast on a morning soon after her adoption, and when the toaster popped up two slices of toast – Holly dashed off into another room like she had seen a ghost! It was easy to be with Holly, she was a real genuine lady, but could really take care of herself with other dogs if they wanted to push her around! I took her to work with me every day when I was an Animal Control Officer and she helped me attract dogs that were loose on the freeway several times. She was such a good girl. I miss her terribly to this day and will probably never really get over losing her. She was my angel.

  5. Lindsay Stordahl Says:

    Thanks for sharing your story about Moca, Apryl. She sounds like a tough dog! I’m glad you were able to recognize what was best for her.

    Holly does sound like an Angel. There’s something special about training a rescue dog to understand our strange, human world. I know what you mean about never getting over losing a dog.

  6. Jen Says:

    The first dog that Scott and I had together as a married couple was a four year old GSD named Chelsea. She had been surrendered to a veterinary ER clinic as her owners could not pay for her treatment for myasthenia gravis. We met her at the clinic and when we saw that big doggie smile and those warm brown eyes, we knew she was coming home with us. She was our constant companion and was (mostly!) very patient with us as we learned daily about what it was like to live with such a beautiful, loyal and intelligent dog. We lost Chelsea very suddenly to cancer at age 9, but she will always live on in our hearts as our “special”.

  7. Lindsay Stordahl Says:

    Chelsea sounds like such a sweet dog. I love German shepherds. I hope to have one someday when one will fit better into my lifestyle.

  8. Sarah Says:

    I just lost my Springer Sam two weeks ago. She was 15 and he hips were giving out on her. It took a lot to realize that she was tired and ready to “go home.” I got Sam when I was 10 years old. She was a great dog from the start. It took her 4 days to potty train and 2 weeks to pick up sign language, although she was not deaf it came in handy when I wanted her to do something form across the room or the yard. She went rollerblading and running with me and was there for all the growing pains I had while becoming an adult. She was so full of life and energy up untill the end which is why it was so hard to let her go. Her mind was there but physically she couldn’t do it any more. I will always remeber that little girl and she will always hold a special place in my heart.

  9. Lindsay Stordahl Says:

    I’m so sorry to hear about Sam. She sounds like she was one of those once in a lifetime dogs. Thanks for sharing a bit about her. My mom’s springer loves to run too!

  10. Martin Says:

    Hi,just reading your story about Brittni. We are waiting for the vet to come and put our BONZO to sleep.
    BONZO is fifteen and we had him from a puppy. A beautiful, loving and loyal friend. He has rapidly gone down hill over the last few months. We know he is going to doggy heaven.

  11. Lindsay Stordahl Says:

    I’m so sorry to hear about BONZO. It is so hard to put a pet to sleep. I’m glad you got to spend 15 years with him. Thanks for sharing a bit about your golden. I still miss mine.

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